Decisions to Make

It has been awhile since I did a blog on here. Too long.
I have missed it but so much as been happening that I have really not had much free time to write.

I have been going between the two places I have.....lp and bp....and it has been wearing me out. Takes alot of energy. Trying to keep up with two places. To keep them in shape. I feel very pushy when I have to request to get things done, but I am the only one there is to take care of it, so I do it.


When I come back to bp each time, I walk in and think...this house is too big for me...it is ridiculous to have all this room for only me..and the pet, of course.
I have lots of friends and family over for meals but I think I am doing that to fill the house...I never did it for that reason before.

I know my husband would say to move on. He would want me to be closer to the family...or at least the part of them that I can.

I attend to the things at lp....and, I relax and think, okay, that's done, now I can go back to bp and relax for awhile. Then I get to bp and something there has to be fixed and repaired. It is too much.

I am about ready to move permanently to lp.

I am doing well in lp...I have a wonderful Christian friend..also a widow...living across the street from me...and she and I are always doing something or going somewhere together. She is a Godgift to me. We get along very nicely.

The church in lp is wonderful and it is coming at a time when my church in fp is having problems being between pastors. That may be a sign from my Jesus for me to move to lp.

I keep looking for signs...isn't that crazy??? It is so evident that He wants me there...He has made it so obvious to me....I know that...the price of the house, the friends I have made, the church and the warmness of the people there...the attitude of the people in that town...there is just no way that God has not shown me that I should move.

But it is still difficult.

My husband bought this house for me.....it's like I am leaving a piece of him behind...and I know that's not true. He will alwsys be completely with me...all of him. But it is difficult.

I thought of living in lp for three months, having the mail forwarded, etc. And that is probably what I will do.

But I need to do it. I need to make that next step....and then stick with it.

My family in lp has been wonderful. They have found me a sunday school class to attend, they have taken me to church on wednesday and introduced me to everyone, they have found me a "job" that I can voluteer at in the church...everyone is praying about it. What more could anyone ask? I feel so loved and respected.

But it is still difficult.

So I am still thinking about it,still praying, still listening to others, to my heart, and most of all to my Lord.

I will know when it is time....and God will guide me and give me strength and wisdom to make the move.

P.S.
I think putting it all down on paper has made it even clearer to me...what I must do.
Make the move.