I did it!!!

Well, I don't know what is going to happen...but I went and talked to one of my personal friends...the banker that found this house in bp for us....and asked him to find a buyer for me. He is not a realtor but he is a good friend.

Don't know what God has in sind for this, but I am leaving it up to the Lord...He is the one who found us this one, so He can do it again.

Will keep you posted. Need prayers.

Decisions to Make

It has been awhile since I did a blog on here. Too long.
I have missed it but so much as been happening that I have really not had much free time to write.

I have been going between the two places I have.....lp and bp....and it has been wearing me out. Takes alot of energy. Trying to keep up with two places. To keep them in shape. I feel very pushy when I have to request to get things done, but I am the only one there is to take care of it, so I do it.


When I come back to bp each time, I walk in and think...this house is too big for me...it is ridiculous to have all this room for only me..and the pet, of course.
I have lots of friends and family over for meals but I think I am doing that to fill the house...I never did it for that reason before.

I know my husband would say to move on. He would want me to be closer to the family...or at least the part of them that I can.

I attend to the things at lp....and, I relax and think, okay, that's done, now I can go back to bp and relax for awhile. Then I get to bp and something there has to be fixed and repaired. It is too much.

I am about ready to move permanently to lp.

I am doing well in lp...I have a wonderful Christian friend..also a widow...living across the street from me...and she and I are always doing something or going somewhere together. She is a Godgift to me. We get along very nicely.

The church in lp is wonderful and it is coming at a time when my church in fp is having problems being between pastors. That may be a sign from my Jesus for me to move to lp.

I keep looking for signs...isn't that crazy??? It is so evident that He wants me there...He has made it so obvious to me....I know that...the price of the house, the friends I have made, the church and the warmness of the people there...the attitude of the people in that town...there is just no way that God has not shown me that I should move.

But it is still difficult.

My husband bought this house for me.....it's like I am leaving a piece of him behind...and I know that's not true. He will alwsys be completely with me...all of him. But it is difficult.

I thought of living in lp for three months, having the mail forwarded, etc. And that is probably what I will do.

But I need to do it. I need to make that next step....and then stick with it.

My family in lp has been wonderful. They have found me a sunday school class to attend, they have taken me to church on wednesday and introduced me to everyone, they have found me a "job" that I can voluteer at in the church...everyone is praying about it. What more could anyone ask? I feel so loved and respected.

But it is still difficult.

So I am still thinking about it,still praying, still listening to others, to my heart, and most of all to my Lord.

I will know when it is time....and God will guide me and give me strength and wisdom to make the move.

P.S.
I think putting it all down on paper has made it even clearer to me...what I must do.
Make the move.